Wednesday, May 13, 2015

The Resurrection

I'm dying.
Aren't we all?
We all are headed for death.
But in between birth and death,
We have to exist.
We have to live.
Life is our greatest reward for dying.
Living is our majestic revenge to death.

I am alive! I lived! After a year of hiatus, I am finally blogging, again. I cannot promise to get back into blogging like how I used to, but I will try my best to blog every once in a while.

What transpired in my life during my blogging hiatus? The following are the highlights:

April 2014
I enjoyed my summer vacation with my family, relatives and friends.
I got into a relationship.

May 2014
I watched 2NE1's All or Nothing World Tour concert in SM MOA Arena with ate KF.
Mama and I had fun at Ocean Park and Star City.

June 2014
I volunteered in Gawad Kalinga Bayani Challenge, and asked mama to be with me. It was held in San Remigio. We found new friends who are fellow volunteers - Team Hugot!

June 2014 - March 2015
Third year in law school.

November 2014
I went home to surprise my father on his birthday, but he was rushed to the hospital on that day due to severe stomach pains. He was hospitalized for four days. Thank God, he is fine now.

December 2014
Bianca, Niña and I got our very first tattoo done by no other than Sir Carlo Gabiana.

January 2015
Mama and I volunteered in Gawad Kalinga Daanbantayan Profiling.
I was diagnosed with acute gastritis.
Ate Ira came home after a year of working abroad and stayed here for forty days.
I celebrated my 23rd birthday.

February 2015
I suffered from acute pharyngitis and fever.
We spent happy time with the family as Ate Love, Blake, Juancio, Tito Jay and ate Yak came here for a vacation.

March 2015
I was absent for almost three weeks from school, because of my gastritis and fever. The pain is unbearable that I just curl up in bed, crying.

April 2015
I had an endoscopy in order to check my stomach. It sucks. I do not want to undergo endoscopy ever again. Sadly, I have erosive gastritis. My entire stomach was swollen and was full of wounds. The bile would also go up my stomach instead of going down to my small intestines. I am almost positive for H. Pylori bacteria. I have to avoid stress and certain types of food, such as coffee, chocolates, tea, milk, citrus fruits, spicy food, fatty food, etc. This is probably one of the hardest challenges in my life. This gastritis is chronic. The doctor said that it will never go. If I become too stressed or if I eat those food, I will experience pain again. Sometimes, I don't even know what to eat anymore. Health is wealth. I'm learning that lesson the hard way.

May 2015
Enjoying the remaining days of my summer vacation with family and friends.

I wrote that poetry above on October 2014, but I only posted it on March, because I honestly thought that I was dying due to the pain that I was feeling. I always try to think positively, but sometimes the negative thoughts would creep into my mind. I was depressed. I thought I had cancer or something. I was always crying. I was so down. I just wanted to stop. I wanted the world to stop. I was suffering too much, that I wanted the world to wait for me.

Right now, I don't know what the world holds for me. One thing I know for sure, God is with me. Whatever happens, He will be with me on my road to recovery; in my fight; in my journey. He will never leave me. I have failed God so many times, but God forgives me countless times. I can never thank Him enough for being with me all throughout. God's love for me is beyond measure and beyond comprehension. I am a sinner, but I am a believer. I believe in God. I believe in the universe. I believe in myself. I will be okay. Everything is gonna be okay. In Jesus' name. Amen.

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
(1 Corinthians 13:13)

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