Saturday, May 08, 2010

I still LOVE you

I have noticed that my written love related to Big Bang have already reached 12 posts, while my other major addiction, which is the Lakers, have only reached 5 posts. Isn't it kind of unfair? I am so against injustice, but I am not giving justice to my Lakers love with these countable posts.

I have only like an hour left before I'd be off and go to my native land, but I am saving this last-minute blog for Lakers. I offer you my apologies, Lakers love, I love you so much, and I still do, and I will love you always and forever. I may not always write my confession of love about you, but God knows, dramatically speaking, in the deepest of my heart's fervent desire, you will always be number 1 (just don't let me choose between you and Big Bang, though I would choose you, in the end).

Kobe, please bear in mind, that whoever they hail as MVP, you are and always will be our MVP.

Lakers, I don't have the gut-feeling that you'll be the champion, unlike last year, but I BELIEVE that you will be, though. It's not about the gut-feelings, it's all about BELIEVING, I know the SECRET. I LOVE YOU! Paalam!

Friday, May 07, 2010

I am the Only One

"I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something. And because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something I can do". ~Edward Everett Hale

A year has passed since I've gained knowledge of our family problem. It was April when I first knew about it, but I considered it a rumor, for no evidence was laid at hand. It was only in December that I have accepted the rumor as true.

Four months have passed, but no one ever confronted someone to solve the problem. We all have just repressed our agony, for we want no chaos. I have been waiting for a moment that can infuriate me or anyone in the family to speak up. When that moment came, I didn't even know how to respond, and just changed the topic to avoid commotion.

There are times when Ate Ira was very eager to ask questions, perhaps to end the problem, but later on refused to, for our focus on studies may be affected, as if it hasn't yet.

I have been brainstorming on how to alleviate all these hidden hurt, guilt, mistrust and hatred, and the only approach I can think of is to write letters. The letters will be addressed to all the people involved in this predicament. Solving the problem through letters is the only peaceful way. If no one will stand up and take action, a year will slowly pass again, the problem unsolved. When I go home, that will be the only time for me to write and personally deliver the letters. That will be the only time that my emotion will be so focused, for when classes start, my attention should be narrowed towards my studies.

I am the only one who can end this problem. Though I may be emotionally frail at times, I am the strongest in the family. My Mama is too weak and martyr, she can never handle the case. Ate Ira is clouded by hatred, she can never see right. Kent is just an innocent kid who knows nothing. Ate Lovelie, though part of the family, is not completely entwined with our bloodline. I am the only one who is not weak enough; the only one who does not bear hatred; the only one who is willing to forgive; the only one who can eradicate all these pain and suffering. I value our family so much, that I would face this on my own. God, be with me.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Wednesdays with MORE

It's definitely not Tuesdays with Morrie (one of my favorite books), it's Wednesdays with More, more, MORE! I'm uploading more and more photos, I'm eating more and more food, which makes me sad, and I want to write more and more posts.

I have long days ahead, but three weeks of my May days will be consumed offline. I will spend three weeks in my homeland, and sad to say, we have no internet connection in our house there, and no PC. Our computer is placed in my Papa's office, and we won't be bringing our dysfunctional laptop there. The only way I could get online is either to go to my Tita's house and surf for free or go to an internet cafe and pay.

Since I won't be able to update my blog the following weeks, I will write more posts, now. I'm one of those people who dig up their own blog and read their old posts. Oh yes, I honestly enjoy reading my old posts. My aim for this summer is to post more, so I can read more of my own posts, but I have to HAVE a life. I was unsuccessful with the posting-more thing, because I only posted a few last April, and I am sure it'll be fewer this May. When classes start, hell, I am surer than sure that I'll post less, lesser than less.

Now that I have an auspicious time to write, I shall write more. I am actually multi-tasking right now, uploading and writing. Perhaps I have become a compulsive multi-tasker. I need to pop chill pills. *Oh! Upload successful!YEY!*

Upload Overload

I have only three days left before I fly off to my homeland. With the little time left, I ought to upload the pictures I have promised to upload this summer. I'm such a late uploader, yes, shame on me. It takes me so long before I upload photos. Pictures which are taken this month will only be uploaded a few months later. That's how long a time could span before I upload photos, I am that lazy.

Before I go home and leave these mess here, I shall upload these old photos. Today, all I did was create albums, upload photos, and tag people. I haven't even done my Hip Hop Abs because of this upload mania I am accomplishing. It sickens me, that I wasted a whole day uploading, but I have got to do this. While I am writing right now, I am still uploading photos. It is even more depressing, because of the failure of upload. F*ck!

Now, I am getting a dose of my own lethargy. Had I not been in a state of sluggishness, I could have not been faced to this exhausting job. Oh well, I have to upload more photos. Sayonara!

Monday, May 03, 2010

Wonderful Days with Wonderful People

♥ ♥ ♥Last Friday, April 30, 2010, was Chrisia's Birthday. Weeks before, Jel and I already planned a little surprise party for her. We kept it as secret as possible. What was more amazing about her birthday is Jel's presence, and also Bianca's. With Lordee being a spy of her on that day, the surprise was made more surprising. We were already stationed in the canteen, and Lordee asked her to go with her to the canteen, with Chrisia only knowing that Ninz was there, and unknown to her that we were there, instead.

When she realized what was really occurring, she was filled with tears of happiness, or so it seems. She was absolutely glad of what we have prepared for her. She even expressed how happy and thankful she was. I was also delighted that she was happy. :D


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My bestbutts Leslie, Meg, Catherine, and I had a sleepover at Leslie's crib. Achellie, sadly, wasn't able to join the fun, though. We spent the whole night dancing, eating, doing abnormal stuff, and answering some Ice Breaker questions. We were able to extract juicy news and info from each other, and knew each other better. It was good, we were like Care Collectors, and I felt fine with our sharing.

It's so unlucky of us, though, because the battery of Meg's cam got easily drained off it's power. We used my phone instead to take evidences of our ecstasy, but my phone got crazy, too, which was way too mysterious for me. When we got a battery replacement for Meg's cam, its memory card has some error, another mystery. I didn't bring my cam, for its memory card was full, and wondrously, yet unfortunately, the shutter release button of our camera was ruined. I was informed about it only when I got home, so even if I brought my cam, it would be futile.

Catherine, who was required by her Mama to get home before 7am, left early. Meg and Leslie woke up at 8am and just had a conversation. I, the lazy and sleepyhead of the group, woke up at 10am. We then played a silly, childish game. Soon, Leslie's young cousin's joined our game, and we so had total fun, shouting-filled game.

After our brunch, we took a bath in an exotic way of bathing. Instead of taking a bath in a CR, we took our bath outside, altogether. No, not a pool or a resort or anywhere away from Leslie's place, but in their laundry area, where there was a poso. We splashed water to each other, and we were not naked. After our exciting bath, we rested for a while, and parted ways.

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I love my friends. And I would like to quote Chrisia's message, "I don't understand why destiny allowed some people to meet when there's no way for them to be together... but my friends and I killed destiny! We will forever be together."
Friends forever! ♥ ♥ ♥

My Heaven on Earth

I am just simply speechless, HAPPY with the new BIG BANG Lotte DFS pictures. They make me fall in love with them all over again.

~You have sore eyes or something?

Just aDORKable!

~I honestly have never thought that Tae Yang could be that vain, and could be that proud of his lovely butt. :D

~Big Bang getting serious..hmmm... getting more and more blazing HOT, evarrr!!!~


__As if it isn't that obvious, the overwhelming answer is... Big Bang.
BIG BANG, you are my heaven on earth.

*click on the link to see more cute and hot BIG BANG photos*