Right now, I don't really wanna talk about EATOF, because it's going to be verbose or perhaps it's better for me not to talk about my sentiments for EATOF - confidential . My heart is just in an area of meditation and reflection. I haven't felt this way for a very long time. Confusion envelopes me as my feelings and emotions struggle to inform my brain what they want to convey. I don't understand what I'm feeling. I feel that I'm in love, yet I feel hurt and betrayed. However, nothing ever happened. Nostalgic mood keeps recurring in my system. I feel that I miss someone or something, but I do not know who or what. Something is missing in my life. I feel pain deep within. Loneliness is eating up my heart. I do not know what to do because I do not know what is happening to me. I am really baffled.
Dear Lord, help me. I do not want to feel this way. I have so much things to worry and think about than this confusing feeling. Heal me. Make me understand, and bestow me what my emotions are longing for, whatever they may be. I need to find myself, Lord God. Be with me.